I want to see how many people are proud of it.
We’re like unicorns
and in this moment i swear we were unicorns
i run a sexual blog but i am a fucking virgin yolo
RISE OF THE UNICORNS
I have put my heart into 2 relationships. The first, Marcus, I was head over heals in love. The first; he was the one. I wanted to spend every day of my life with him. I fell head over heals in love with him. He told me he would be leaving for the Marines in November (of 2012), the week after Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving came to an end, he was still here. December; still here. To this day, he never left. Come to find out, from TWO of his friends, he had NO plans to go into the Marines. Not once. I had also found out he had been seeing his ex-girlfriend the entire time. I had never felt so stupid, so betrayed, so embarrassed my entire life. I lost my mind after this. I didn’t want to eat, I didn’t want to sleep, I didn’t want to do a god damn thing, ESPECIALLY devote myself to someone ever again.
Then I met the second, Neil. We met on Plenty Of Fish in March of this year (2013). I had no intention of trying anything with Neil. But we started talking quite a bit and things kind of just took off, and I did what I didn’t want to do. I devoted myself. Stupid. We talked 24/7, he said all the right things, he was the exact man I could picture myself with, long hair, motorcycle, tons of tattoos. He was a sweetheart. He made me comfortable enough to talk about things that I couldn’t even talk to my best friend about. I tried and tried to hang out with him. All I wanted was to know what it felt like to be in his big ass arms. But every time, he came up with an excuse not to come see me. I should have known from the first time, this wouldn’t go anywhere. But I convinced myself it would change. It is now almost October, we still have not met. We don’t even talk.
Is it me?
I don’t even want to talk to anyone any more because I don’t want any of this to happen again. I just want someone to be happy with.
I didn’t think it would be this hard.
Or this painful.